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[Feb. 6th, 2008|11:35 am] |
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This is no life.
I'm going to NM on Friday for a week. I'm really hoping it will make a change in the way i've been seeing things lately. I can't really describe what I've been going through emotionaly, but one way or another, it will work itself out like always. Its a phase in a process I guess.
A fresh start is in order.
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[Jan. 24th, 2008|02:43 pm] |
Finaly, I'm getting to go out and do something I want- Show this Saturday. Very last minute, but none the less, I get to play a show again.
I don't expect anyone to show for me, its kinda far, but it will still be a fun show I'm sure.
I wish I knew some artists more like myself. The bands I play with are ridiculously poppy when I play with FGR productions. Very Commercial.
On the other hand, I'm going to get my passport finally today and I'm also going to go check on my court stuff.
I needed to get out of the house. The next couple of days are gonna be good.
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[Jan. 20th, 2008|11:42 am] |
So, some not so great things are happening. My great-grandmother is about to die. That means, Josephine is litteraly loosing her mind. She wants to commit herself. She thinks she can't survive without her mother.
What happened was my great-grandma was standing up and lost her balance, she said she was trying to make it back in her chair but she missed. She banged her head on the ground and now she is bleeding from her brain. The PA said there is a 90% mortality rate in 90 days. She had a second cat scan after Eddie left, the PA called him back and said she now only has weeks to live. This morning I over heard my aunt called my mom to say that the doctor said that if Kasie wants to see my grandma she needs to come within the next few days because she is fading fast and she wont be able to recognize people very soon.
It's really sad, but its time for her to go.
I understand that.
I just hope Josephine can handle it. |
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[Jan. 3rd, 2008|12:18 am] |
why did you leave?
i cant do this.
im falling off.
i need you.
don't go. |
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[Dec. 18th, 2007|04:25 pm] |
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I lost my phone a couple days ago. Leave your number in a comment! |
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[Oct. 27th, 2007|01:28 pm] |
Things are looking up again :)
What I remember of last night was amazing.
I don't think I'll drink tonight.
I woke up sick this morning.
TJ tried to make me eat last night he says but I guess that didn't happen.
This morning has been alright.
Taking TJ to work then off to Katy to work at this Halloween party that I'm getting paid $100 for.
All I have to do is dress real slutty [french maid costume] and take pictures of oldish drunk people, set up food, pick up messes.. stuff like that.. practicaly being a maid.
We'll see what happens. Gilly and I did it last year. Shouldn't be too bad.
After that, I hope something cool is going on. |
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[Oct. 18th, 2007|02:56 am] |
Things just aren't right.
Nothing is going the way I planned out for myself about a year ago. I know why too.
I gave up.
I quit caring.
I only live for the moment these days and I think I may be getting too old to live just for the moment.
I suppose I take care of all of my responsibilities but thats not much at all.
I have too muh time on my hands, and I need to start thinking more productive thoughts, then acting on those thoughts.
Slow down on the "partying". even though I don't hang out with everyone like I should be and its kinda just like me partying by myself or hanging out with Sam.
I feel like I am gaining the weight that I lost back and I really dont want that. I dont like the way it feels to sit down and feel uncomfortable because i am so damn self-concious. I like my body now. I like wearing hardly any clothes and not feeling ashamed or embarrased about my body. All in all, I just dont want that weight getting back on. I think I will exercise tomorrow.
Not only will that help me physicaly, but i bet it will help me soooooo much mentaly.
Im probably going to start making goals for myself every night for the next day [because I always feel like I wasted the day and think of one million and one things i need to do] and posting them on here so I can hold myself accountable easier. [Keepin it simple for now] Soooo Tomorrow:
*Eat breakfast
*Cardio + Weight Training Workout
*Guitar for atleast 1 hour (workout :)
*Laundry
*Dishes
*Shower
*Dr. Appointment at 3
Since the appointment its at 3 I MUST get up early if I want to accomplish all these things, so Im off to bed.
Wish me luck with getting my life back on track. |
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[Oct. 11th, 2007|04:05 pm] |
I just fucking got fired AGAIN!!!!!
What the fuck!!
My boss called and said that a customer complained about a tattooed peirced girl this morning that looked hung over and I made them feel uncomfortable....
WHAT THE FUCK DO THESE PEOPLE CARE?!?!???
She said, "you do an amazing job, but when a customer complains, thats it. The end. I'm sorry."
fucking whore. |
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[Oct. 4th, 2007|01:39 pm] |
I fucking hate my new job.
Its so slow.
Tonight hopefuly something cool happens.
I've been waiting for that all week. |
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[Sep. 21st, 2007|10:35 am] |
I am surrounded by a bunch of wonderful people, and a couple not so much, yet I feel extremly alone.
It feels as if no one else gets it, and im probably wrong, some of my closest friends probably feel the same way.
I just want to meet someone who understands me fully and that i understand back. Then again.. isn't that what everyone wants to do.
enough with the feelings. barf. who needs feelings right?
Tonight is Kim Champions birthday party!!!
I have a feeling that this is going to be one of the best nights in a long time.
I get off at 9. Off to Southmore. Then to play wiff kimberly!
Im writing new music.
I found a roomate.
My tattoo is getting colored tomorrow and I hope to get another one this week.
Sick. |
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